awareness ke baad

jis din ye ehsaas hua ki mujhe apne aap ko observe karna hei bus mein jaisa bhi hoon uss pal mein usko correct karne ki koshish nahi karni bus dekhna bhar hei ek oberver ki tarah
dil mein swaal utha ki issey kya hoga...mein apne ko theek kaise kar paonga
but ye swaal kuch lamhe hi jee saka ...uske baad wohi apne liye ki awareness
aur mein tabhi dekha ki koi  khaal aa raha hei
uske aane ka sabab samajh mein aaya meine us sabab ko bhi dekha aur kya dekhta hoon ki wo negative khyaal apne aap chala gaya
bina kuch disturb kiye
...oh tou ye hei awareness ki asal sachai.....

awareness ke baad

rishikesh..ganga ki lehren...baarish ka mausam..
aur her pal aware hone ki majboot drirhta
 zindagi jaise bahut aasaan hone lagi thi...bhavnayen samajh mein aane lagi..
khyalo ka safar ...saamne tha
kahan se shuru hota aur uska kya matlab hei sab spasht nazar aane laga
soch soch kar hairet ho rahi thi ki kyon nahi samajh aaya pehle ye sab
kitna aasan ho gaya hei sabkuch

the moment of awareness

few years back i was in rishikesh with a book FREEDOM FROM THE KNOWN written by j krishnamurti
i have been trying to understand this for many many years
it was one fine morning i was sitting near river ganag
with my feet in flowing water of river i heard a whisper from my deep inside..
hey until and unless you live while observing yourself as you are every moment you cannot understand these words
and next moment was moment of awareness
i started observing myself as i am not as i want to be or i should be....
woooooooooo ...amazingly every word i read again in the book was understood....

i will write next what happened...after that

MY BEST FRIEND
 meet my best friend
who knows me better than me
thats why a friend of mine use to say me always
WO KHYAALI HEI KHYALAAT SAMAJHANE WAALA
TUJHSE BEHTAR TERE HAALAT SAMAJHNE WAALA

anubhooti ka spandan

tum spandan ho anubhooti ka

writing a book...

its like living those moments again..memories become alive
and have to relive those
its great to put all those in words
hope to gift a copy soon to all my friends in my own handwriting
no grammar checks
no editing
no publishing...
wait for  the surprise package..

miles to go before i sleep...and miles to go before i sleep....

every journey starts with single small step
  and ist step taken...